Summers spent in Utah aren't far enough away for me to forget you

        I spent today wrestling you in my head. There are too many cube cars and fruit snacks and boys with sunglasses. You follow me everywhere, even to my most peaceful places, my most guarded sanctuaries.
        Sometimes I wish I could erase everything that happened between us, but somehow that feels wrong. I guess it's some weird remnant of feelings for you. Or something.
       The part of me that belongs to Jacob is very upset about this, but for the most part, I've just resigned myself to that fact.
        My thoughts cannot move an inch without bumping into some part of you and summer vacation is doing nothing but giving them more time to wander.